तिमी + म = हामी

कुनै दिन यस्तो आउला हामी फेरि एक हुनेछौं
भविष्यका लागि सजाएका सारा सपना पूरा गर्नेछौं
बितेका दु:खद पल भुलाएर वर्तमानमा जिउनेछौं
"हामी"बाट टुक्रिएका पुनः "हामी" मै पुग्नेछौं

अहिले सङ्गै नभएर के भो त ,दिन त्यो पनि आउनेछ
जब तिम्रो मनमा मप्रतिको घृणा अवश्य हट्नेछ
अंगाल्ने छौ तिमीले "मेरी माया" भन्दै ,
तिम्रो हृदयमा मेरो अड्डा फेरि पक्का जम्नेछ

कसम छ तिमिलाई, रुवाउने छैन फेरि
थाम्नेछु तिम्रो हात कहिलै नछाड्ने गरि
भुतुक्कै पार्नेछु तिमिलाइ मन मेटुन्जेल हेरी
बोलाउनेछु तिम्रो नाम सधैँ घरीघरी

मलाई थाहा छ ,तिम्रो मेरो साथ यतिमै टुंगिनेछैन
यो दूरि र एक्लोपनले सदा सताउनेछैन
कहालीलाग्दो यो अँध्यारो रात सधैं रहनेछैन
उज्यालो लुकाएर त्यो सुर्य यसरी हराउनेछैन।

अन्जान

उ छुन्थ्यो मलाई , म खोज्थेँ स्पर्श
उ हसाँउन खोज्थ्यो, म माग्थेँ हर्ष
पुराउँथ्यो मेरो सारा इक्षा आकाङ्छा
मेटाउन सकेन त केबल आवश्यकता
सुम्पेका थिए बुवाआमाले, बनाई मलाई बेहुली
भनेका थिए त्यही अन्जानसँग खुसी रहौली
माइतबाट बिदा गर्दैमा कहाँ हुन्थेँ र म कसैको
बनेँ होला स्वास्नी तर बन्न सकिन श्रीमती उस्को
न उस्को सुगन्ध लाग्थ्यो आफ्नो,न उस्को दृश्य नै
न उस्को निकट त्यो आनन्द थियो,न उस्को मायामै
ऊ आफ्नो मोहलेे भिजाउन खोज्थ्यो मेरो तन
तर अफसोस सधैँ ओभानो नै रह्यो यो मन

मेरो मामा

आज मेरो प्यारो मामा आउनुभयो
सधैझैँ चक्लेट बोकेर ल्याउनुभयो
किन हो जैलै कोहि नहुँदा आउनुन्छ
आज भान्जिलाइ माया गर्ने ल ?
भन्दै मलाई  बोलाउनुन्छ
मलाई थाहा छ मामाले कत्ति माया गर्नुन्छ
एकचोटी म्वाई खाने अनि पापा दिन्छु हस्?
ज्ञानी गुडिया भन्दै काखमा राख्नुन्छ
मामाले त आज नयाँ नाना लेर आउनु भएछ
राजकुमारीको जस्तै फरर परेको जामा पो? आहा!
जामा लाइदिन्छु भन्दै नाना फुकाल्न थाल्नुभयो
चक्चक नगरी चुप लागेर मामाले भनेको मान भन्नुभयो
तर मामाले जामा किन लाइदिनुभएन?
जामा लगाइदेर माया गरेको भए नि हुन्थ्यो नि?
मलाइ राजकुमारी जस्तो देखिन्न हो?
मामालाई सन्चो भएन कि के हो आज अर्कै हुनुभो
पहिला गालामा माया गर्नुन्थ्यो आज त जिउमा गर्नुभो
मामा मलाई  दुख्यो छोड्नु न
जामा लाउदिन बरु पापा नि खान्न ऐया भो के
मामा रोटे पिङ खेल्न जाने नि भन्दिन नि
हेर्नू त हात भरी घाउ भो के
मामाले छोड्दै छाेड्नु भएन
आज धेरै माया लागेर होला भान्जी को
भयो मामा म्वाई नखानु भन्दा नि मान्नुभएन
तर मलाई  थाहा छ मामाले कत्ति माया गर्नुन्छ
भोलि फेरि पापा लिई मलाई भेट्न आउनुन्छ।

hashtagadultery

As she sings her little child a lullaby,

Gently kisses her forehead as he sleeps,

Her bitter reality strikes her consciousness,

And the darkness gradually creeps.

The guy of forty, sleeping besides her

Who she mentions as the father to her son

Was once her husband, the man she got wedded to

Till the day she found him with another woman.

Yet she solemnly sleeps with this man

Not giving him a hint that she's aware

Of his adultery through all these years

And the waste he made out of her care.

She's used to crying a river all night

 Waking up fresh and jubilant with the morning ray

With a calm veil she manipulated herself

To act dauntless and rigid every another day.

How great an actor he is, he must be thinking

For being able to hide his affair and cheating,

But when he hid his external satisfaction from his wife

She had been covering her internal pain all her life.

hashtagspeak

I wasn’t taught to speak what I think

But to judge,

Judge before I deliver

Judge whether the thing I am supposed to say

Matched with the idea of others

So, I had to read,

Read not only my mind but of others too

Read what their reactions could be

For I was said, not to say

The things that others don’t want to hear

Thus, I feared

Feared taking wrong decisions

Feared reaching out my emotions

Feared being laughed at

This fear I didn’t bring it from the womb

But the world instilled in me as a gift

That shall not leave me even in my tomb .

hashtagtrapped

Knowing him wasn't in my plan

Falling for him wasn't expected

But I was trapped in his chains

My soul was now captivated,

Ecstatic was everything when I first got close

He smelled sweet , his feel being distinct

Nothing on earth could beat the way

He studied me in brief and my instinct,

Slow and steady he changed his shades

From bright to dark as he went

My life changed from best to worst

And I saw him turn devil from saint.

I was a bird ready to take a flight

To the height of mountains and above

He wanted to chop off my wings

And cage me in the name of love,

Found a way to escape one day

I left his terror, left his cage

Where neither him nor his shadow could follow

And where I could start a brand new page.

Extra perk

Pulling my tees lower once and again
Scared my bulged waist might be hanging out
Fighting with myself day and night
Thinking what can be done to stop being stout.
Trying different size of jeans whole day
Yet the search of finding the perfect one remains
I watch people staring at my body
And teasing me for my weight gains.
Planning to diet one day and working out the next
My mind grows a fantasy of the zero size
Insecurities of people disliking me
Is where my confidence dies.
'Obese' 'Fatso' and what not they say
Making it harder for me to face
The world seems too cruel to me
As I can't pace up the race.
I am saying it for your good is what you tell
And advise me to skip my meal
Don't bother about my physical health
When mentally you make me ill.
I own my fat and I am proud of it
That's what marks my identity
For if I was slim like you all
You wouldn't notice my peculiarity.
I will burn calories if I wish to
Or I will eat as much I want
People won't be the reason I cry
As my extra fat would be the perk I flaunt.