Extra perk

Pulling my tees lower once and again
Scared my bulged waist might be hanging out
Fighting with myself day and night
Thinking what can be done to stop being stout.
Trying different size of jeans whole day
Yet the search of finding the perfect one remains
I watch people staring at my body
And teasing me for my weight gains.
Planning to diet one day and working out the next
My mind grows a fantasy of the zero size
Insecurities of people disliking me
Is where my confidence dies.
'Obese' 'Fatso' and what not they say
Making it harder for me to face
The world seems too cruel to me
As I can't pace up the race.
I am saying it for your good is what you tell
And advise me to skip my meal
Don't bother about my physical health
When mentally you make me ill.
I own my fat and I am proud of it
That's what marks my identity
For if I was slim like you all
You wouldn't notice my peculiarity.
I will burn calories if I wish to
Or I will eat as much I want
People won't be the reason I cry
As my extra fat would be the perk I flaunt.