Extra perk

Pulling my tees lower once and again
Scared my bulged waist might be hanging out
Fighting with myself day and night
Thinking what can be done to stop being stout.
Trying different size of jeans whole day
Yet the search of finding the perfect one remains
I watch people staring at my body
And teasing me for my weight gains.
Planning to diet one day and working out the next
My mind grows a fantasy of the zero size
Insecurities of people disliking me
Is where my confidence dies.
'Obese' 'Fatso' and what not they say
Making it harder for me to face
The world seems too cruel to me
As I can't pace up the race.
I am saying it for your good is what you tell
And advise me to skip my meal
Don't bother about my physical health
When mentally you make me ill.
I own my fat and I am proud of it
That's what marks my identity
For if I was slim like you all
You wouldn't notice my peculiarity.
I will burn calories if I wish to
Or I will eat as much I want
People won't be the reason I cry
As my extra fat would be the perk I flaunt.

hashtagwish

Abra ca Dabra, Make a wish
And it shall come true
OH! How could I ask for anything else
And not my darling "you".
Abra ca Dabra, My wish is granted
Your are right infront of my eyes
Tears start flowing heavy
Happiness in my heart multiplies.
Your charming face intrigues me again,
Getting me head over heels for the second time
Looking into you and within,
I tend to miss my rhyme.
Alas,
My stretched lips return to it's former place
My ecstasy turns into the usual devastating pile
My heart breaks into pieces as I realize,
You aren't pleased to see me after a long while.
Your eyes don't seem to miss my sight
Your skin has stopped longing my touch
Your heart doesn't want to sense my feel
You , as a whole, have moved on so much.
This wish that I made goes in vain
I could have asked for money or fame
Asking you to come back to me
Turned out to be useless and lame.
With a heavy heart , I bid goodbye
I send you home, to your safest land
AS I am no more your shelter,
How could I even hold your hand?
As you leave, I sense a hole
Deep inside me and in my soul
But you had to go and never return
For there was no need of my role.

Stay

You be the lightning and I'll be your thunder

Together we shall bring rain and rinse the earth

You be the sun and i'll be your moon

Reflecting you when you are unattainable

For I will be your smile that hides billion tears

For I will be your strength at times of fear

They say time and tide wait for none

But I shall look forward to seeing you when you're gone

Marking my area , staying rigid and hoping your return

I shall not move sweetheart , no matter if I get torn

You will be back like summer after the freezing cold

Keeping your promise of loving me even when I'm old

I will stay , wait for you only if you stay mine

If you find your another moon , I shall change my line.

hashtagfirstmeet

The very first exchange of glances,
That quick adrenaline rush as I catch your smile
The sweeping me off my stances,
This moment ought to pause for a while.
My initial hesitation as you come close,
Awkward expressions on our face
The biting of lips and lifting of the eyebrows
That deep urge to feel your embrace.
Your subtle touch on my hand,
Feeling teased and wanting more
The drops of your melted heart
Start filling up my hollow pore.
A different feel , a small tickle
Shall hit us both and disappear
But this ecstatic emotion of love won't fickle
Even if we aren't close and near.